I just needed to post this pic
Richard Armitage talks about his role in Spooks 7, from DVD extras. Source: RichardArmitageNet.com
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Because I am also sort of shaking my head in astonishment. Huh??!?
Lots of weird conversations today. About work. My future.
And this just in — my mom’s CA-125 levels have fallen … fallen so far they weren’t anticipating it. Fallen so far it’s not entirely credible. Fallen so far they are going to retest just to confirm the result. It’s not the whole story, but it’s good news. Chemo will continue, but the doc is optimistic. No evil eye.
My MOM is optimistic. I haven’t had a conversation like this with her since … May?
I’d been turning this question over in my mind: If you knew the last time you would ever be happy about something, and could have advance notice about how the happiness would be suddenly yanked away as a result of which you would never be happy about that particular thing again, would you want to be warned about it being the last time so you could savor it? Or would that knowledge ruin it?
I kept wondering if we would ever have a conversation again in which she was happy and relaxed and optimistic and just … herself. Ever. If that was just gone.
Even if the test was wrong. What a gift. To talk to my mother like that again. Thank you to everyone who has been praying for her and me (please continue). Thank you, G-d.
So glad to hear that about your mom! And yes, Thank you, G-d.
many thanks for your prayers.
Serv, I hope and pray that the test results aren’t just a fluke. How wonderful that you were able to have such a conversation–a gift is the perfect way to look at it. Hugs.
it’s almost like I got the in between thing — by the time it happened I knew how precious it would be if it happened again. So a reason to be triply, quadruply thankful.
So glad to read this. Hope is a good thing. Truly a gift, to have such precious moments to share. I know how much they mean. Much love to you both!!
Thanks, dearie. I know you get this and I’m grateful for your support.
I love hearing things like this. I am praying that these test results are NOT a fluke. But even if they are a fluke, to be able to have this moment with your mom & that she has some happiness, is a gift. Continuing to pray for you & mom.
She was even talking about raking leaves. It was … amazing.
I have my fingers crossed that those results are true – it happens. As to your happiness question – i’ve never wanted to know the future because when i look back on my own crisis’ i’m glad i didn’t know they were going to happen in advance. To be robbed of naive happiness and optimism would be another loss.
Thanks. I think this is very true; in fact there’s a classic American play, “Our Town,” which sort of says if we knew, we wouldn’t be able to stand it.
I say “savor the good times” because none of us knows when it will be the last time. But it is difficult to slow down and actually do that. And no, I really don’t want to know the future. Best wishes for you and your mom.
yeah, it’s so hard to realize that the “normal” can also be wonderful and treasure it for that. I guess I’m learning more about that now.
I am so pleased to hear your news. May the tests be correct, and I will be giving thanks for answered prayers, but not ceasing to ask for help and healing. I pray that the test results are real and true, and borne out by your mother continuing to gain ground. Yes, grasp every bit of happiness with both hands and be glad, because there can never be enough of it in the world. It may be only fleeting, but all the more reason to cherish every second.
The doc is (I guess) just doing this to confirm b/c the result is unusual but he doesn’t think there’s any reason to think it’s not correct.
Great news, Servetus!
“Dont worry be happy”! ( I know….it’s easier said than done 
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especially for me, lol.
I hope too that the test result was correct! I’ve been wondering about how your mum was doing. I sent you a message on FB but not sure you had time to read it.
Thank you for sharing the good news. I’m really happy for you both! Cherish every moment of happiness as the others have said. And no, I would not want be forewarned that I was happy about something for the last time…No thanks. 
Btw, great pic of our Rich! Thanks for that! 
it’s not his usual facial expression, either, is it?
I wrote back to you on FB, thanks for the reminder.
Good to hear that. I would savor any moment I can because I think knowing the future would be boring. Exploring the world is despite the suffering still too exciting, at least if I’m not stuck or depressed.
boring or depressing
So so so happy for you and your family. God bless.
Many thanks!
Indeed a gift! Savor, treasure, store for later. Whatever the retesting brings, you’ve had this wonderful moment. As we both believe, *everything* happens for a reason.
Your question, would I want to know or be warned that it was the last time. No. Because then I couldn’t enjoy it.
You both are in my thoughts and prayers, serv. Lots of *hugs* heading your way, too.
Yeah, it’s true — there are no coincidences. I need to let go of my rationality some more
Thanks for your good wishes.
Great news! I don’t pray, but happily send you continued good thoughts.
I love good thoughts, too. Thank you.
I am teary eyed with joy to hear you have been blessed with such a wonderful moment with your mom. I never had that chance with my own mother. We tried to remain optimistic, but were never provided with any objective basis for hope after her diagnosis, which is so often the case with ovarian cancer. I wish you more of these moments in the future, and you are in my thoughts.
I think that part of her mood was just that she knew the statistics. I never discussed them with her, but I researched them, too, and for ovarian cancer they are just not good. I’m grateful that we had this moment in any case. Thanks for keeping us in your thoughts.
Aww, wonderful news, Servetus! Thank G-d. I’m so glad you will always have the memory of this special moment with your mom. Sometimes I wondered too, with my mother, whether on a certain occasion I’d seen the last of her humor, her opinions, or her energy, but she always surprised me.
So that makes me think you will share many more moments with your mom–maybe ones that are different from this one, but also good.
Thanks for the optimistic perspective. I need these reminders. And you know, she is still herself when she’s sad or discouraged, and you’re right, I still have her and that’s something to treasure, too.
So happy for you! Cherish those wonderful moments with your Mom; I do miss mine so much.
Thanks for your good thoughts and wishes.
So glad to hear about your Mum and I hope that the results are a true indication as to what is going on. It is lovely that you had a normal conversation with her. I don’t think that I would want to know if a moment was the last time I would be happy about a particular person or situation. Love the picture. Will post on your Thorin posts soon, things just perculating through at the moment!
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Thanks for your good wishes. No rushes, ever, on responses … it has taken me long enough to push that out.
So glad to hear the good news! I needed that. My father died this Tuesday and was buried on Friday. Needless to say that it has not been my favorite week. I hope your mother makes a full recovery and is around for many years to come! Sending you both a big hug.
I’m so, so, sorry, Mujer Tropical, and I’m sending a big hug back.
Great news
I hope they can confirm the good news!
Thanks, actually the second test results came back yesterday and they are consistent with the first one. Deo gratias.
AMEN!!!!
What a relief that must be!!!
yeah. It’s only step 1. This is not a cancer that can be cured — only pushed into remission — but still, it’s a big deal and a sign that the therapy she’s doing is working.
Remission is good. Giving thanks for answered prayers…
I hope nevertheless she will be able to spend much more time here on earth….without to much pain and a lot of happiness!
Thanks!
Good news for you and your family. I hope all goes well and the test was right the first time around. But still enjoy those moments together.
Not sure why, but the only way I can leave a comment is to reply to someone else’s comment. Anyway I’m glad to hear your Mom is doing better. I know it must give you some relief.
Thanks, katie70, thanks Sloan.
It’s good news for you and your family. I’m glad to hear it.
Thanks for the kind comment.