(partially) OT: A positive tumult

Harry Kennedy (Richard Armitage), admitting that during fifteen years in London no neighbor ever rang his doorbell, in Vicar of Dibley: A Handsome Stranger. Source: RichardArmitageNet.com Armitage called Harry a character who “was running away from something, from the dark to the light” and found it in an unanticipated place (Geraldine).

I haven’t written much yet about the job aspects of work since changing jobs, partially to maintain my anonymity, but mostly because I haven’t known what to write. I was heavily uncertain whether this was the right decision, even up to the night before work, even through the first week. I still waver. But things are so different here. I still don’t whether this will have been the right decision. But I’ve been the recipient of so much kindness here, or stuff that I perceive as kind that the people who give it think of as normal. I almost don’t know how to speak about this, or what it’s doing to me. I feel like I’m rethinking everything, as if I’ve suddenly been the recipient of a shower of unexpected redemption and now have to reimagine what I thought I knew was certainly true about my future only a few weeks ago. I’m dropping this here today because something especially nice happened again today, and I’m so overwhelmed by own happiness — and even more, by a feeling of gratitude that I still have the capacity to feel this way in a setting like this — that it seems like the thing I have to write about first. (And last, because I have to do the reading tomorrow for a seminar meeting on the Spanish Inquisition.) (There’ll be more Armitage, tomorrow, never fear.)

Harry Kennedy (Richard Armitage) reacts to Geraldine Granger’s (Dawn French) consent to marry him, in Vicar of Dibley: The Handsome Stranger. Source: RichardArmitageNet.com

~ by Servetus on September 8, 2011.

21 Responses to “(partially) OT: A positive tumult”

  1. I’m still running behind on your blog posts. But let me be the first to comment.

    I am glad to hear something lovely happened for you today. 😀

    And isn’t that Harry just a love?

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  2. I’m so happy to hear things are making you happy and I sincerely hope that things remain that way while you settle in. Best wishes, Kathryn

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  3. Wow! And I am wondering how mean were those people at that last place that people behaving “normally’ seem so unusual? I can’t even imagine how depressing that must have been. How did you stand it for so long?
    You seem to me like a flower that has been deprived of light so long that it could only creep around hugging onto walls for support like an ivy, but finally turns a corner and experiences the sun’s warm rays. 🙂

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  4. Phylly is right, you’ve found a place that is *normal.* It shows how bad the other one was. Great to hear more happy news. 😀

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  5. Happy for you! Nothing like turning the page, and leave the past behind.

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  6. I’m really happy for you too! Now that you are experiencing these good things it has opened your eyes to the realization of what had been wrong in your previous place. Phylly’s analogy sounds like it hit the nail on the head! I hope this place will work wonders for you. 🙂

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  7. How wonderful! I’m glad that this new experience has had a restorative effect.

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  8. I’m so happy for you,
    …am I right or do I sense that ‘our’ Servetus is happily overwhelmed by some unexpected feelings for a(nother) “perfect stranger” that crossed her path?…….

    Love is in the air 😉

    FH

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  9. I’m still catching up with your blog, Servetus. RL cvan be annoying at times! I just want to say I am so very happy to hear that you are experiencing good things and that, having found somewhere where things are so different, you will be able to put That Other Place behind you. Even if this new position is not, ultimately, the right thing for you, it will have done such a lot to restore you. I can’t iimagine how awful it must have been for you and am so glad you got out of it- it was very clearly, as angie says, toxic. Phylly’s analysis sounded spot on.

    And I am really happy that something lovely happened for you today.

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  10. Wow. This makes me want to kiss your new colleagues on the lips.

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  11. My husband lost his adjunct faculty job in FL early last year, and we had to move to a new state for a better job. Leaving FL for WV was a huge change, but in the end we were so happy we did it. I hope you end up finding yourself ultimately sure you did the right thing- happy and fulfilled with your new job!

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  12. “Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the and the blind can see” — Mark Twain. I have been relying on quotes a lot these days. As I writer, I figure it has all been said and by waay more talented people. And ya know what? It has!

    I don’t normally, like to say,”I told you so!” But I did. Before you started this job, I told you’d it go down like this.

    I so vry happy that all this yummy happiness is coming your way. Enjoy it!

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  13. Servetus:
    I am very glad to hear such good news.

    It always puzzles me how oppressive academia can be. It shouldn’t.
    I also wonder why and how can we ( human beings) stand such situations.

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  14. I’m so glad for you, it looks like things are settling in your life.
    (I just wonder if this doesn’t mean you may not need that sort of fantasies anymore.)
    And about kindness: “If we cannot be clever, we can always be kind.” ~Alfred Fripp

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  15. Oh, I too am SO glad to read this …

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  16. So very happy for you Servetus. Hopefully, you’ve found the light at the end of the tunnel or at least a glimmer 🙂

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  17. […] post is for Servetus, Profacero, Spanish Professor, Historiann, and the rest of my compañeras fighting the good fight […]

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  18. […] wasn’t one of those days. Not that everything in my life’s suddenly turned perfect, but I’m a lot happier now than I was just a few months ago, sometimes so much happier that I don’t recognize […]

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  19. Very belatedly I want to thank you all for these kind comments. Your support has meant so much these last months.

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