John Porter fantasy for the beleaguered

John Porter (Richard Armitage) reassures Katie Dartmouth (Orla Brady) in Strike Back 1.2.

The height of my John Porter fantasies was occurring during the first year or so after his appearance. I was really struggling with what seemed like an impossible situation, and Porter was so handy. Whenever I was unhappy with a situation, he was all too ready to appear in an escape fantasy. He’d break into a faculty meeting, for instance, and get me out of there. He got me through the last days of teaching. He got me through a move. And a few other things I’m too lazy to link just now.

Escape fantasy: Porter (Armitage) and Katie Dartmouth (Orla Brady) escape her kidnappers in Strike Back 1.2.

I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised at his sudden re-appearance in my thoughts and fantasies, then; he was always the man for the extreme rescue.

Dad is doing somewhat better every day, although there are ups and downs. Already there are some things he doesn’t need me for — huge relief — but some things he may need me for for at least the next six months, and maybe longer. Although it’s much less bad than with mom, objectively, as he’s in no danger of dying anytime soon, at the same time, I had the blessing of time off then that I don’t have now. I am his primary caregiver. I will get to out tomorrow night for about three hours, the first time we’ve spent apart in ten days, thanks to the charity and attention of one of our neighbors. I don’t expect this will persist forever, but someone has to be within earshot as long as he’s at risk of falling, apparently. A week ago, he couldn’t stand without extreme vertigo — now he manages about ten seconds without it. Baby steps. I love him; I’m glad to do it; but it would be a lie to deny my escape fantasies.

Fantasy John Porter fills in perfectly here. He supervises the showering. He makes the modifications to the house the minute they become necessary, because he’s so handy. He’s a reliable support for going up and down stairs and he’s always calm in a stressful moment. He always knows what to do, and he’s always confident that we’ll get through. He’d shoot anyone for me. Or, well, at least anyone who was threatening me.

[I owe a lot of replies to comments and I promise I will get to them. I’m thankful for every one of them. The whole 24 hour thing means that at present I have little time to decompress and often when I have free time I have to be sleeping. But this should change, soon, as arrangements fall into place.]

~ by Servetus on June 26, 2018.