Some days the only Richard Armitage fantasy

•May 25, 2017 • 2 Comments

Going back to the original point of the blog: why is Richard Armitage on my mind so much?

You’d think after all this time, but no; or in this atmosphere, but no. Still on my mind. All the time.

And I guess it comes down, in the end, to the basic fantasy.

Sometimes when everything is too dumbfounding to be true: me, in bed, head on pillow, lying on my side. Fantasy Richard Armitage, half spooning, half covering me. He’s weighty and warm and he presses me into the mattress as I fall asleep and because he’s there, I can’t be lost.

It’s been a bit mau around here

•May 24, 2017 • 27 Comments

Thanks to everyone who keeps popping by in hope that I’ve posted — I’m grateful.

Every day that I don’t write makes it harder the next time I try — I know this from academic writing and it’s been true here, too. Writing here almost every day has sustained me for so long that I’m at a loss to explain, completely, what’s been going on lately. There was the trifecta of Mom-remembering (wedding anniversary, confirmation, Mother’s Day), and that has started to fade. There’s the problem of managing Dad’s emotions about the fishing (for some reason he’s suddenly convinced this is the last year he will go fishing) and about a friend of his who’s moved into a nursing home. There’s the political situation, with every day bringing new blows, and yet I find myself unable to stop staring, transfixed, at the domestic and international train wreck the U.S. is initiating at the moment. There’s my frustration with my job situation (multiple interviews, waiting, waiting). I have some friends who are really suffering right now and I found myself weeping today after talking to one of them (although in the end that was probably a good sign). I’ve been trying to do some marketing research for my wannabe book and finding it a bit discouraging. I turn on the computer and find myself uncomfortable within the fandom.

So all of this: several weeks with no flow and I really can’t afford to go on this way. The longer without flow, the stronger the voice of my punishing, silencing inner critic.

Things I want to write about: Richard Armitage and the levels of tension. The second trip to Love, Love, Love. The trip to NYC for Pilgrimage. The last two Pilgrimage posts. My recent insight about something I think Armitage is doing in his work. The appeal of Bagginshield. Some things I’ve been reading lately. My latest unpleasant encounter at the café. The fishing situation. The spring. The Richard Armitage fantasies I’m having at the moment.

In the end I want to get back to the primary purpose of the blog. I had just decided last night that I had to write something, anything, and then came the attack in Manchester and I let myself watch that.

And now it’s 1 a.m. and I have another job interview tomorrow.

I think what’s coming after that will be some short attempts to revive my flow. They won’t be well thought out or polished, just an attempt to get my writing flowing again.

So. Thanks for reading. I appreciate all the readers and your good wishes and I hope everyone is okay, jointly, and severally, and we all know where all our loved ones are sleeping tonight. I know on some level that’s self-serving; if my loved ones are okay, that means someone else’s are not. But I still hope we are all safe and sound.

If you’d like to remember Manchester families w/donation #richardarmitage

•May 23, 2017 • Leave a Comment

Manchester Evening News has a JustGiving page.

Grieving

•May 23, 2017 • Leave a Comment

Dark Angel: Richard Armitage colleagues’ reunion?

•May 23, 2017 • 2 Comments

It’s a small world in UK television. Turning away from the horrible news from Mancester, and the infinite repeat of cell phone video, I switched to PBS, where I noticed Kate (Robin Hood) talking to Mr. Bolton (Sparkhouse)!

Joanne Froggatt and Alun Armstrong on the set of Dark Angel.

and then, a few scenes later, Kate was in bed with Robin (Robin Hood)!

Joanne Frogatt and Jonas Armstrong in Dark Angel.

So I thought I’d look, and lo and behold, Sam Hoare, who was more or less an extra on Captain America: The First Avenger, also has a role in this series.

Someone could get some really interesting fan fic out of this.

Nat’s Richard Armitage blog is back!

•May 23, 2017 • 4 Comments

[and she did have another kid. Well, I thought she might. Congratulations!]

Check it out, here.

Thinking of you in Manchester

•May 23, 2017 • 4 Comments

Hope all our fellow fans are safe.

 
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